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a natural means of communication." (Mother laughs) He too was
taken aback!... That's how it was, all my studies were like that, I
enjoyed myself all the time — enjoyed myself thoroughly, it was
great fun!
The teacher of literature ... He was an old fellow full of all the
most conventional ideas imaginable. What a bore he was, oh!... So
all the students sat there, their noses to the grindstone. He would
give subjects for essays—do you know The Path of Later On and the
Road of Tomorrow? I wrote it when I was twelve, it was my home-
work on his question! He had given a proverb (now I forget the
words) and expected to be told ... all the sensible things! I told my
story, that little story, it was written at the age of twelve. After-
wards he would eye me with misgivings! (Laughing) He expected
me to make a scene.... Oh, but I was a good girl!
But it was always like that: with that something looking on
and seeing the sheer ridiculousness of this life which takes itself
so seriously!
The Mother: Conversation with a Disciple, July 26, 1967

To be more and more conscious
Ever since I was very young, I have always thirsted for the same
thing: I have always wanted to be conscious. So what makes me furious
is that I am not conscious — it infuriates me.
For a long, long time, that was also the one thing I felt was
worth living for — Consciousness. When I met Théon and came
to understand the mechanism, I also understood why I wasn't
conscious at a certain level. I think I've told you how I spent ten
months one year working to connect two layers — two layers of
consciousness; the contact wasn't established and so I couldn't
have the spontaneous experience of a whole spectrum of things.
Madame Théon told me, "It's because there's an undeveloped
layer between this part and that part." I was very conscious of all

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