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Intensity of seeking
I have been asked another question which is a little more
subtle, but it seems to me it has quite a special interest....
Somebody asks what is the true intensity for wanting the
Divine, in the will to unite with the Divine. And then this
person says that he has found within himself two different
modes of aspiration, especially in the intensity of aspiration
for the Divine: in one of these movements there is a sort of
anguish, like a poignant pain, in the other, there is an anxiety,
but at the same time a great joy.
This observation is quite correct.
And the question is this:

When do we feel this intensity mixed with anguish, and when
the intensity containing joy?

I don't know if several or many of you have a similar experience,
but it is very real, this experience, very spontaneous. And the
answer is very simple.
As soon as the presence of the psychic consciousness is
united with the aspiration, the intensity takes on quite a dif-
ferent character, as if it were filled with the very essence of an
inexpressible joy. This joy is something that seems contained in
everything else. Whatever may be the outer form of the aspira-
tion, whatever difficulties and obstacles it may meet, this joy is
there as though it filled up everything, and it carries you in spite
of everything.
That is the sure sign of the psychic presence. That is to say,
you have established a contact with your psychic conscious-
ness, a more or less complete, more or less constant contact,
but at that moment it is the psychic being, the psychic con-
sciousness which fills your aspiration, gives it its true contents.
And that's what is translated into joy.

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