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sake, but to call down the Divine Consciousness and its Powers.
CWSA 32:572
The perception of Power
Since childhood, I have always endeavored, as it were, to at-
tain total indifference — nothing is annoying, nothing is pleasant.
Since childhood, I recall a consciousness striving for... (that's what
Sri Aurobindo meant) for indifference. Interesting! It makes me
understand why he said that it was I who could attempt the transi-
tion between human consciousness and supramental conscious-
ness.
The Mother: Conversation with a Disciple, April 26, 1972

In fact, it's something I had never experienced [that absence of
meaning]; even in my earliest childhood, when there was no devel-
opment, I always had a perception (not a mentalised but a vibrant
perception) of a Power behind all things which is the Raison d'Être
of all things—a Power, a Force, a kind of warmth.

The Mother: Conversation with a Disciple, August 21, 1963

A Stranger to the World
You see, apparently I was a child like any other, except that
I was hard to handle. Hard in the sense that I had no interest in
food, no interest in ordinary games, no liking for going to my
friends' houses for snacks, because eating cake wasn't the least
bit interesting! And it was impossible to punish me because I re-
ally couldn't have cared less: being deprived of dessert was rather
a relief for me! And then I flatly refused to learn reading, I refused
to learn. And even bathing me was very hard, because I was put in
the care of an English governess, and that meant cold baths — my
brother took it in stride, but I just howled! Later it was found to be
bad for me (the doctor said so), but that was much later. So you
get the picture.

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