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have often found very, very painful – that it should exist.
It's one of the things I have seen in my life that seemed to
me the most ... the most intolerable — that sort of acid bit-
terness against the Divine, because things are as they are,
because all that suffering was permitted. It takes on more
or less ignorant, more or less intellectual forms ... but it's a
kind of bitterness. It takes sometimes personal forms, which
makes the struggle even more difficult because you can't
mix in questions of persons — it's not a personal question,
it's an error to think that there can be a single "personal"
movement in the world; it's man's ignorant consciousness
which makes it personal, but it isn't: it's all terrestrial at-
titudes.
It came with the Mind; animals don't have that. And
that's why I feel a sweetness in animals, even the suppos-
edly most ferocious, which doesn't exist in man.
(long silence)
And yet, of all movements, the one that gives perhaps
the most joy – an unalloyed joy, untainted by that egoism —
is spontaneous gratitude.
It is something very special. It isn't love, it isn't self-
offering.... It's a very full joy. Very full.
It is a very special vibration unlike anything other than
itself. It is something that widens you, that fills you — that
is so fervent!
It is certainly, of all the movements within the reach of
human consciousness, the one that draws you the most out
of your ego.
And when it can be a gratitude without motive, that vi-
bration (basically, the vibration of what exists towards the
Cause of existence) ... then a great many barriers vanish in-
stantly. (Mother contemplates that vibration of gratitude for a
long time)

10 All India Magazine, June 2022