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still as vicious as anything.
It was quite simply an "incident" – to mention just one.
But the remarkable thing is that my physical pain went
away immediately; I felt a pain in the nape of my neck, like
a weight that hurt and pressed on the nerves, and it went
away instantly: "Oh, it's nothing, just that"!
Then He seemed to lead me to other places, where I
saw a sort of scorpion with a very odd shape (it was also a
sort of entity in that realm and it gave other illnesses) trying
to climb up somewhere. There was also a truncated snake
which had been cut through, and out of the cut something
like its life was escaping, yet it was still alive. All kinds of hor-
rors. But there wasn't the slightest feeling of disgust: it was
more like a consciousness studying, observing, and the "I"
that observed was the force exerted by the consciousness
on the play of those things.
It isn't a pleasant realm. It's the realm that's just like this
(Mother places one hand over the other), immediately be-
yond ... (how can I put it? It's neither higher nor deeper in-
side) beyond the subtle physical, and it's the realm in which
formations of illness materialise. I spent more than three
hours of the night in it.
The Mother: Conversations with a disciple: December 25, 1963

God within is infinite and self-fulfilling Will. Unappalled
by the fear of death, canst thou leave to Him, not as
an experiment, with a calm & entire faith thy ailments?
Thou shalt find in the end that He exceeds the skill of a
million doctors.
CWSA 12: 476 Sri Aurobindo

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